As you know, monday blues.. Its like so fast and we're back to school already! Time passes by like a bullet train. School was normal today, as usual. Ended early so me and my clique went to lunch @ Bistro Walk @ TP! Lunch was great. Afterwards went to look for Farhana's prezzie and then back home soon enough.
10:58pm now... Sometimes I wonder is my life currently good enough for me? I mean am I doing what I like to do, or is my course of studying suitable for me? I constantly have these thoughts in my mind. And what do I want to achieve and do.. I admit im a lazy person, so I, myself do not expect alot for myself too. But what is my purpose in life then? Is it the usual routine like studying> home> doing maybe research on projects> eat > sleep.. and this vicious cycle just continue till the holidays come? Its just this emptiness I feel sometimes, so prolly that makes me a shopaholic.. Like what my mom told me, I just focus on material things that I want, thus diverting my attention from other things. ER.. Like finding a bf and going into a relationship. But, srsly which girl wouldn't want to find a caring/humour/thoughtful boyfriend? I do, and have to admit.. But I believe its not the right time yet, I believe god has place a partner in my life from somewhere in the universe.. Maybe I just have to wait. Im not pretty or whatsoever just that I believe in fate.. Whats yours will be yours, anyway love can't be force right? (: So I constantly remind myself, so what if you like the person but the person might not even liked you, I will not whine or post anything about it.. Cos I dun believe if u whine, that person may fall for you. Sooo let nature take its course. I feel its a good thing as well a a bad thing for me.. but its okay.
Truthfully, in poly now I do not have a crush on anybody, am i weird? Or am I enjoying the single life I am right now? Its like the crush in me since young have cease.. probably because nobody courted me and im numb to it already. Its good in a way with what adults think like I can focus on studies more and enjoy many other things in life. Great. This way I do not have to fret about love life or whatsoever for the time being. Should I be happy? Yes. And should I be unhappy? Yes too. Because never ever once in my life, I've gone into a relationship with other guys. So, therefore I dunno how does love feels like and how does going in a relationship makes my heart grow fonder for the special someone. But still, like what I say and would always remind myself. "Wendy, you do not need or go into a relationship like what other girls yearn for now. Focus on whats priority to you and I can assure you even w/o a bf currently, you would still be a happy girl!" -My quote haha!
Okay wendy emo for a few secs then snap out of it.. Tmr will be a better day!
Woah, I realised I blogged quite a long post today.. just a simple rant :) And if you are single just like me? Enjoy to the fullest ya? Don't fret too much about not finding a gf/bf or worst be so emo about it.. Because there are more great things to life which you can do and achieve! Hope you strangers learn something.. :) Cheers!
Goodnight
xx
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